SWEE LING

2011-09-17T22:39:00.002+08:00

this week was super eventful. i had w46h chalet but sad to say, i missed out the whole bbq part where most of my classmates will be coming. i can only hear from shuxian how fun it was and i was feeling bad inside. but at least everybody get to meet again after sometime and they had fun. bf is not booking out for 2 weeks and i cannot contact him this week cause he's having field camp. yea, NS suck but it'll be over soon. i'm finding things or videos to watch to divert myself.

2011-09-06T11:43:00.002+08:00

i wonder when was the last time i've blogged. this space is filled with cob webs and is getting more and more shabby i guess. LOL! oh well, i don't have the intention to close it down anyway.

so, i went back to work straight after UT3. it was a little tough in the beginning as i've forgotten a little about it and there are small changes to the pause and it was long since i worked on the peak periods. last week was all packed and the number of people there all exceeds 15k. totally insane, seriously. also, it was my first time hitting 3000+ and the cart that i worked during one of the days nearly hit $4000. it was non-stop serving guests, i don't even have time to top up any drinks. well, 'mission accomplished' HAHAHA!

last thursday was teacher's day and i went back to my seconday school with my cliques in uniform!! every teacher's reaction was 'why are you in uniform?' epic much! HAHAHA! it was great meeting some which i only see them once in a year and still having things to talk about. it was also great to see some of the teachers that have taught me and still remembers me.

2011-08-24T23:14:00.002+08:00

when you're about to think that life is perfect, something is bound to make it imperfect.

2011-08-20T21:02:00.002+08:00

it sucks when you know that you should be studying and absorbing but your brain just remains at the 'turn off' mode. and it suck even more when you know that you're stupid.

2011-08-10T21:58:00.003+08:00

i think it was kinda obvious that jayden is born for 1 month and 5 days. i realised that i've uploaded the wrong picture, couldn't bother to change cause my internet connection is freaking lag. additionally, sharmaine can speak more and her gullible-ness and innocent thinkings/ actions always make the whole family laugh out loudly at her silly behaviours or cute actions. her childcare teacher has been complaining that sharmaine is naughty in class.

life have been good to me-with good and fun friends around me, meeting up with friends that i haven't been keeping in contact with for months, being able to sleep early every night (but i still have problems waking up every morning) and lastly, a understanding and caring bf! i couldn't ask for more because you're treating me too good to me to ask anything:)

2011-07-20T13:39:00.002+08:00

this is jayden and he is 13 days old!

ok, i haven't been blogging for 1 month due to schools and bands. RPWS concert has ended last friday with a blast! it's the first time i enjoyed myself so much on stage and doesn't really worry that much, except for my solo. lol! anyway, i didn't attend school today as i'm down with fever in the morning and have recovered now but i still feel weak. maybe i just need another rest.

2011-06-12T23:24:00.002+08:00

so, my 1.5 weeks of holiday has ended. well, i enjoyed it a lot as there are no studyings and rj at all. LOL! i attended band camp and it was fun! however, the ensemble was a little screwed. whatever, it's over. i will not dwell over it. before 4 days 3 nights of band camp, i finally had time to head back to work but it was only for 2 days. at least better than nothing.

i'm glad that at least we met before you went in. at least for me, i'm not sure about you. just hope that i'm not as busy as before so that we have more time for eachother.

2011-05-29T22:21:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY WAS GREAT! SERIOUSLY!!! it was like back to seconday school days! firstly, i wore huayi uniform back to school to go for the exchange with them and performed. then i met up with the usual clique of seconday school at night. we laughed super loudly in the bus and we did not even bother to lower down our volume. LOL!! some people even turned back and look at us. oh well, we're like that, since young. bowling after dinner and it was great! i hate it when someone strike and everyone had to drink shots. cab home at 2 plus.

2011-05-23T21:05:00.003+08:00

my first examination after starting school. time seriously flies. it's already the 1st month of school. i love my class! it's forever full of craps and laughter. and we'll be wearing the orientation tee as a class tomorrow! *anticipate much!*

2011-05-17T17:48:00.001+08:00

i'm glad to have you! <3

2011-05-14T17:39:00.002+08:00

LIFE'S GOOD! taking a break from work now as UTs are coming and i think i have a lot to catch up on organisational behavioural and maths. bro will be working with me when UTs are over.

2011-05-06T20:42:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MY CLASS!! now that everyone is more close, the whole class would joke together, watch movie together, hate someone together and we watched the latest facebook video of a couple behaving very intimatly in hongkong train together. they're all fun people! i couldn't imagine how it'll be like after 12 weeks later. seriously, they're all fun people to hang out with. we would always hang out in a big group during lunch break. how loving we are haha! and we had a facebook group! <3333

back to work tomorrow! i have to wake up by 5.30 and i'll knock off 12 hours later.

2011-05-02T23:03:00.001+08:00

after working for 3 days straight and standing for more than 10 hours everyday, i'm proud to say that i'm pretty much alive and my legs aren't that tired. back to school tomorrow!

2011-04-29T21:35:00.002+08:00

i forgot to mention that yesterday's lesson was super fun! i was literally laughing out loud for the whole day, seriously. my daily grade was penelised because i wasn't paying attention and kept laughing. but it was kind enough for the faci to give me a C. and i have another faci who keeps saying that i look tired in class. i look tired outside but my mind is actually working. at least it doesn't shut down and i'm able to absorb what's taught. heading back to work tomorrow till monday. it will be long before i can have a break.

2011-04-28T22:27:00.002+08:00

went for a swim with melissa and felicia after school. it feels good but i was panting like crazy after each lap. LOL! it's been long since i last swum. i bet there i'll have muscle cramp tomorrow. hopefully i'll be able to reach school early like today so that i can take the lift to class. no climbing of stairs, seriously. and oh! i signed up for rock climbing, chiron and band for IG. out of these 3, i actually have more interest in rock climbing but i'm still deciding on whether to join band or not. i'm going for their tune in next tues and this is partly why i signed up. lol! i only want to have 1 cca as i'm already very busy. shit! i suddenly have more interest in band. aiyo!

2011-04-26T19:51:00.002+08:00

it's the second week of school already and i'm starting to feel tired. i'm seriously weird. i can keep yawning in the morning but i don't yawn at all at night. and my stomach is feeling extremely bloated these few days. i almost vomitted every morning and i became very full after like 5 spoonful of rice but i was screaming hungry before that. whatever. enough of myself, i'm not interested neither is anyone.

my class is getting more and more fun! especially when everyone starts to think dirty together. unity ok! LOL! they're all fun people and i can't imagine what it'll be like after 15 weeks. gosh! i think i'll miss them. and i hate the frequent change of environment. no doubt that you'll meet a lot of people but i would prefer to have a few good friends than hundreds of hi-bye friends or those who are only with you for the sake of that semester.

2011-04-21T20:26:00.001+08:00

first week of school is over! i'm glad that my class is getting more and more bonded. there are advantages and disadvantages in RP. the common disadvantages are doing RJ, others will be kept inside me. somethings are not meant to be spoken.

2011-04-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

school is starting tomorrow! walao!!! i'm still in my holiday mood, like mentally and physically. i have maths for this sem module and i think i will flunk it as usual. WTF! this period would be tiring and busy for me as i'll be working on the 22nd, 23rd and 30th of apil and 1st and 2nd may. tiring only. but i need money more than anything else. and i haven't been falling sick so i'm still strong and healthy. lol! just hope that migrine won't come looking for me, if not i'll just collapse. i would rather fall sick than having migrine, i swear. imagine someone hitting your head with a hammer. that feeling totally suck and occassionally, when it is serious, you'll feel that your stomach is churning and you have the 'want to vomit' feel. my life is just fucked up.

AIYA!!!! SCHOOL IS STARTING TOMORROW!!! IT'S TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

have i made the wrong decision? i'm beginning to miss everything about us. i'm not sure either, but i'm thinking about you recently.

2011-04-16T10:07:00.002+08:00

three days of orientatin have finally come to an end! yesterday night was a blast! i was jumping around together with my group members and most of the RP freshmens. it was hhhhiiiiiggggghhhh!! the only thing that dampens our mood was the mud. it was raining before 'jump and hop' so the grass were still wet. the first two days of the orientation was kind of boring actually because i was not participating much in the cheerings and most of the event happening on that 2 days were cheering. however, i participated in all the cheerings yesterday night. had lots of fun, seriously. has been long since i last had ssssooooo much fun.

school will start officially next monday. i've met my classmates, they're all fun people but i wonder what kind of group will i join as we only meet eachother for one morning only. i don't mind having just 2 people but if best, the whole class mix together or most of them mix together. it would be seriously fun, like how 4n1 was. everybody was so bonded and no hidden motives. hopefully i won't meet such people. meeting jasmin, chaoxiang, eunice and nicholas later!!

2011-04-13T22:00:00.002+08:00

in short, orientation has started and school will start next week and i'll be seeing my classmates tomorrow before proceeding to play games. tell me how fast time flies. i'll be heading back to the textbooks/lecture notes in just 5 more days. WTF!!

2011-04-10T22:42:00.005+08:00

these few days were spent in huayi, either having sectionals or listening to them having practice. this period makes me miss syf. the days when we worked so hard, thinking that may be, may be we'll have a chance to clinch a gold but always, someone or may be most of us will screwed up on the stage. whatever. what matter most if the process, not the medal. i only hope that they'll really give in their best on stage that day and not let fear take over them. i'm not asking for anything in return but it's kind of sad to see your efforts go down the drain,especially when you've made so many sacrafices. tuesday, 12th april, 9.15, hua yi concert band, all the best!

2011-04-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to myself! no more flour, chilli water nor paint this year! haha. so, i celebrated my birthday in the zoo with girlfriends! thanks for the 2 surprises girls! it's nice to have surprises once in awhile.lol! anyway, i was fascinated by the animals the moment i stepped foot into the zoo. it has been 10+ years since i've last been there. i've finally seen kangaroos!!! oh my! after living for 19 years, i've finally seen one, sua ku or what? haha! oh well! anyway, the weather was blazing hot! i think i can cook an egg under the sun. buay tahan! caught 3 shows and i like the elephant one the most. elephants are so cute despite being so big sized! vivian joined us for dinner. then vivian and melissa went my house to slack and they left at 10. special thanks to everyone who has wished me via any form of communications! <3

2011-03-28T23:48:00.002+08:00

I SWEAR COCKROACHES ARE THE WORLD MOST DISGUSTING CREATURE!!! just look at it's 2 feelers and i'm already disgusted.dad had a great fight with that creature just now. haahhaha! he's afraid of cockroach too! i was actually shitting very comfortably. then suddenly, i heard 'piat'. normal reaction is to turn my head and to my horror, i saw one cockroach there. it was big! seriously!! so i hurried up and rushed out of the toilet. of course my butt is clean of shit la. lol! dad used rubble band to shoot it down but it was extremely stubborn and kept staying at the pipe at the top of my toilet. then he used the rinser to shoot down that idiot but it flew and hid itself. stubborn bastard. took dad around 5 mintues to shoot it down. i was laughing so loudly that mum woke up and 'tsk' me. lol! oh well!

2011-03-27T00:17:00.002+08:00

I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT THE BANGKOK TRIP WITH VIVIAN, VALERIE AND BERNARD! you can tell me if you want to join. we welcome everyone, the more the merrier. lol. i've done a few research and i think we'll be heading down to the travel agency to get more details about accomodation and stuff. parents are always a huge obstacle, it's gonna get tougher for me as there's an earthquake in i don't know which part of thailand. however, if everthing goes smoothly, we'll be going in early june. OH MY OH MY!! typing all these chunks just make me feel excited all over again. hahaah! i seriously want to get out of singapore! well, life may be good for me now but i'm kind of sick of things here already. i need a change of environment for awhile. things are just too constant for me over here. it's always work, band, work band. i need a breather- to get away from other things and just enjoy myself.

2011-03-26T00:16:00.002+08:00

now that holidays are coming to an end, i kind of dread going to school. lol! i've forgotten much of what i have studied for Os. will be working from 11-7 tomorrow. this is the first time i get such benefit after working for so long. lol! after the last waterworld show, i can go around slacking and helping my colleagues pack the stall. just hope that no one calls in and said their on MC tomorrow. if not i have to open cart -_-"

went for my grandma's sis funeral just now and am amased how many people are there to pay their last respect to her. it has been like 10 years since i last met her so my impression of her was very mild. i only remember that she'll always take out one fish jelly for us when my grandma brought me and my bro over to visit her. that's the only memory i have with and of her. life is just so incredible and unexpected.

2011-03-23T01:45:00.002+08:00

this is what i call true love. though they may not die together, at least they're still so loving before one hits the bucket.

i realised that i haven't been blogging for about one week. it's 1.52am now and i'm typing all these in the dark. i can't see the alphabets clearly but i can still rememeber the positions. proud to say, i'm quite a good typer. LOL!! and i've also realised that i'm running out of photos to post. all my other photos are in the desktop. well, let's just wait for another outing with friends. work is fun especially when you have colleagues talking to you, joking with you and see-ing pretty, ugly,handsome,fat, thin people in the park together. i'm loving my job even more. they are all fun and kind people. i guess my iris muscles are working very hard for me to allow me to type all these rusbbish. lol! nights people!

2011-03-16T17:57:00.002+08:00

straight 3 days off is finally here! went back to work on monday and my legs are tiring out already. think my legs toleration level is left with 30% of what i had last time. lol! next week will be chionging week cause i'll be working on only saturdays soon. school is starting and i just saw the orientation board. the activities doesn't seem fun. i wonder what kind of people will i meet and hopefully i'll be able to find friends in the same class as me. shy shy la! just pray hard that i'll meet fun people and meet good friends.

2011-03-13T14:49:00.001+08:00

just listen to this and you'll know how i feel- speechless.

2011-03-13T13:56:00.002+08:00

went to watch red riding hood with GG'08 yesterday. charmaine was working so she did not join us and jasmin was at phillippines. wanted to watch big momas intially but we were late and the next screening time is around 7 so we changed our minds. the movie was not bad afterall but the ending was kind of arupt. after movie, we met up with sihui and off to suntec to find char and guoting. found them, chatted for awhile and we left. the crowd was seriously scary. people squeeze in whenever they found a small gap squeeze in with whichever part of their body can get through. super irritating. anway, we went esplanade to chill as well as to camwhore a little. left there at around 11.

the earthquake and tsunami in japan was super scary. mother nature may give you nice scenery but at the next second, they may flew in rage and destory what they gave you.

2011-03-11T00:34:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging via my Itouch. So, i'm 80% done with my enrolment thing and I can just hand up my form tomorrow and I'm completely done with my registration. Camp would be on he 13th to 15th if I'm not wrong. My memories are failing terribly. I can forget things the next minute. Anyway, my one week break is almost up and I'll be heading back y
to work next Monday,spells dead. Lol. Off to sleep now, have to wake up early again to go to my soon-to-be school to check out something. Nights earthings!

2011-03-09T15:23:00.001+08:00

wanted to blog initially but sihui called me and ruined my plan. lol! have to rush out to meet the girls for class bbq. see ya!

2011-03-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

so apparently, having so many off days are actually quite boring. i stayed at home most of the time today- blog hopping, facebook-ing and watched a movie. and oh! i borrowed 2 books from the library today because i was supposed to help my bro get his guitar string and he haven't reply my message so i went up to the 3rd floor of the library to read some books. been sssooo long since i last read english, as in minus reading a few pages of the newpaper. will be out from tomorrow onwards all the way till sat and will be going back to swsy on sunday after sssoooo long. lol!

it's actually such an irony that i don't really know much about myself.

2011-03-06T23:09:00.002+08:00

the 9 days off are finally here! been waiting so long for this but out of 9 days, 7 days are occupied with band or bbq. but at least i get to sleep till late morning. went mayflower to watch the exchange, as well as practice a little. went junrong's house to slack and i was super sleepy. feel like no matter how long i've slept, i always get the tired feeling. had dinner at 900+ till 7 then went home. slept at 10ish.

woke up at 9.45 today and still feeling tired despite having close to 11 hours of sleep. met biwei and peiwen at jurong east and we took train all the way to pasir ris. met azman at the interchange and we went elias cc together. feels stupid that we got lost. lol! rehearsal start at 2 plus and slack at mac after that. concert started at 7. stayed for cityswing's performance then went white sands for dinner.

2011-03-02T20:43:00.002+08:00

today was fun! had my first duet with biwei at my house. sight reading still suck as per normal and we recorded how we played and we sounded OMG! one problem could be the the lousy recorder from our phone. LOLOLOL!! continue pushing the blame only. lol! have to work tomorrow because there aren't enough people. but in return, i'm off on sat and sun and the rest of next week if there aren't any last minute MCs. have to rush for band after work tomorrow and hope that i won't be late. till then, bye!

2011-03-02T00:07:00.003+08:00

lesson learnt- never ever forget your status. remain a part of the crowd is better than being the outstanding one. noted.

2011-03-01T00:13:00.002+08:00

coped this from qinyan's blog.

so anyway, the 55th anniversay public concert was over! am glad that i enjoyed most of it though the rehearsals were all shit. so on that day, i woke up at 5.30 and met up with joonkiat,chaoxiang,chuanjie,khiameng and nicholas at HKE mac at 6.30. then the 3 alumi walked back to huayi. packed and shifted the stuffs, we headed off to UCC. the dressing room was big but it still prefer esplanade's because they have individual toilet though it's small. morning was just crap because we were cooped up in the dressing room. managed to catch some sleep while waiting for lunch. blah blah blah, the concert started at 7 and our performance was at 8 i think? the audiences were great and i like the part where they gave chaoxiang support when he's breaking down. thumbs up! back to dressing room after that to wait for finale. it was photo taking for everyone. the whole band was super high during the finale. my original plan was not to join in but i joined in and had lots of fun! i was screaming and shouting. LOL!! the whole bus was super quiet on the way back to school. everyone was drained. but still, GOOD JOB GUYS!

had to work the next day and i was feeling super tired. luckily there aren't much customers so i can slack more. so at the end of the day, i had migraine and gastric. felt super horrible. my stomach was like washing machine. it keeps turning. thought it was the effect of migraine but mum said it was gastric. think i went for lunch too early already. so i slept from 10 all the way till 7 the next time as i have to work.

2011-02-25T23:18:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is the crappy 55th anniversay concert. seriously, it's the 1st time that i've performed for 15 minutes only and it is before intermission. something's wrong. oh well, there's only one word- s.t.u.p.i.d . i have to wake up by 5.30am latest tomorrow because the teacher don't allow us to go on our own and we are meeting for breakfast at 6.30. going back to work on sunday and monday and i can predict that i'll look like a ghost again with dark eye circles and heavy eye bags. whatever. hope that my manager allows me to take another one week off before april.

2011-02-25T12:47:00.003+08:00

the old days are always what i miss the most.

i would rather things to remind as it is now. i'm not moving any forward, neither am i moving backwards. i did weaver after that, but i realised it is not right. i know it's been long and i'm thankful to you for not changing. but sometimes, you just know that it's not right. guess things won't remain the same as it is but i'm glad that we had a great time and those are memories which won't be erased.

2011-02-22T13:48:00.002+08:00

i remember chaoxiang's reaction: why so short?! LOL!!

still very much alive though it's been very long since i stay at home for the whole day. dad and mum are complaining that i'm always out working for band-ing. lol. busy la! 2 concerts coming up leh, may be 3. i have to go out now. will blog again when something eventful is happening. oh ya!! the whole working north cart members except for 5 of them, walked the boardwalk together to vivo. the scenery is seriously nnnniiiiiiccccceeee!!! very suitable for couples. only walk at night, don't walk in the day. there is a drastic change. lol. yam, i bring you there next time when we're working together.

2011-02-17T12:06:00.003+08:00

after work yesterday, my colleagues and i went to sit this 2 rides. staffs get to ride for free:DD it was a wrong choice to ride the red one first because the speed was seriously fast like mad. swear you'll definately feel like flying and when it drops down, you'll feel that your heart is coming out from your mouth. but still, it was fun and i don't mind riding it again. the ride is only 30 seconds i think but it feels like minutes.lol! super funny, my shirt was initially wet because my water bottle leaked. so ya, my handphone had a nice spa in my bag yesterday in 100 plus. ok, that's not the main point. the funny thing is after the Human ride, my shirt was dry. LOL! then we went to queue for the blue one-Cylone but i chicken-ed out at the last mintue because the thought of turning 360 degrees 5 times just freak me out. morever, i'm still not over the red ride yet. nevermind, i'll ride it next time when i went in to play with my friends. staffs have discount, haha! and i'm definately gonna have godilocks there.

2011-02-14T23:22:00.002+08:00

woah! it's been a week since i last blogged. well, life is simple- band and work, nothing else. glad that i don't have a bf now because i don't think i have the time for all 3. guess it's still not the right time yet, may be later? anyway, how does your valentine's day go? roses and balloons were spotted everywhere i've been to today. reguardless of what, i still think that it's just a normal day. it's nothing special to me cause everyday can be valentine's day.

2011-02-08T12:27:00.002+08:00

2 days of working 12 hours is killing me. was super tired yesterday and showed black face to customers. LOL! but it was mostly one customer's fault. keep changing her orders and i have to keep re-keying. ok, so after work, i chionged home and totally K.O-ed by 12.30. oh ya! my cashier lost 21 bucks the day before and i was super scared. but nothing happened when i went back to office so i left feeling super guilty AND my company gave me $10 ang bao. even more than some relatives lor. LOL!

Chu Er

my parents and bro went out to have breakfast. i stayed at home because i was feeling bloated so i stayed at home, sitting infront of the computer until my mum called to ask me go over to my aunt's house. as my maternal grandparents are staying with my aunt, so every year, very automatically, we'll go over on the 2nd day to collect more ang baos. LOLOLOL! then at around 3 something, i think, we went to ntuc to buy the ingredients for dinner. granny cooked tom yam for me:DDD slacked, played and chatted all the way till midnight then my bro and i went home. mum and dad left early.

Chu San

was supposed to start work but dad insisted that i must have another rest day so i called and said i'm sick. the lion dance came at around 2.30 and they performed all the way till 3pm. photos are up on facebook, you can check it out. i'm lazy to post them here, just a few. AND WE HAVE CAI SHEN YE! so after the lion dance, my parents mopped the floor while i practice a little clarinet and we went jurong point with sharmaine. that little girl is seriously super super naughty though she's super adorable. her stubborn-ness always leave us with no choice but to scold or beat her. after reaching home from jp, my uncle called and we headed down to his house. played dai dee with dad,bro and uncle all the way till 11 after dinner. walked home after that.

i have to go out now. will the pictures next time.

2011-02-05T14:12:00.005+08:00

reunion night
woke up at 8 plus. went back huayi with melissa and the celebration ended just nice when we reached the gate. was stopped by the security guards cause we wore shorts. managed to sneak in and see some teachers when it was super crowded and mr lao and the security guards aren't watching. playing hide-and-seek with the discipline master was thrilling. afterwhich, we had McDonald's for breakfast then went yam's granny house to help her take things. slacked at her place till 3 plus and my relatives came at near 5. had steamboat for dinner. chatted and everything, they left at near 9. headed over to aunt's house for party. i had a good laugh listening to my dad, uncle and aunt's conversation. dad and uncle are seriously 2 big jokers. i forgot what time my bro and i left.

Chu Yi
whole family woke up late and didn't went to the temple to pray. went to aunt's house to bai nian first then headed home to wait for paternal side's relatives to come. was super sleepy and took a little nap. they reached at near 5. bai nian-ed, chatted and had dinner. they left at 9 something i think. headed to aunt's house for party again. watched tv, crapped and left at near 2 with bro.

the lion dance is here. blog again!

2011-02-04T12:03:00.002+08:00

i have to rush now to take more ang baos! will update again. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!

2011-01-30T21:11:00.002+08:00

4 days of off work is over and i'm heading back to work again tomorrow till tuesday. a little regret working during the cny period because we have to work 12 hours everyday and i heard that the number of vistors are a lot. once, i heard from my manager that there at 15000 people. if they place me alone on that day, i think i'll have to go to the hospital again.lol!

anyway, i've enjoyed my 4 days off because i went for band everyday and I PLAYED DISCO PARTY! lol! crazy only. but as usual, i still screw up la. my tuning now is hell out of tune. looking forward to comworks, huayi concert and SYF!!! gosh! i dont feel like working anymore but i want the money. shall endure for another 2 months. work is fun but tiring and i kept missing band practice. not trying to act like i'm a band freak but it's a fact that attending practices is already part of my life.

just a little side track. mum was talking to me yesterday about boyfriends and she asked why i never have one since my best friends have. and i'm not sure about my answer so i just reply: cause i don't like them. lol! i think the right one is not here yet. the next bf i'm dating will be my future husband. and he must know how to drive so that he can drive me around. if he is someone who looks like kim hyun joong, then i'd propose to him the next day. LOL!

2011-01-27T11:21:00.002+08:00

i forgot which day. the both of us plus wei lun and terry went for a buffet. this was planned two years ago and we only get to fulfill it 2 years later.lol. so after eatting, we went to walk around mustafa. seriously ba wu gao gao. started having headache after walking for sometime. pungent smell. LOL! not racist, just describing:x then we parted around in the evening. went yam's house to slack then went down to the pasar malam to buy dinner. afterwhich, we decided to go jp to search for maxi dress. homed at near 9.

sometimes when i get moody, just leave me alone. i would be alright after awhile. if you know me well, you should know that i would not get sad for more than 30 minutes, unless it's something horrifying.

2011-01-26T22:30:00.002+08:00

i don't know how or what i should be feeling right now. i'm feeling dead inside, literally. i don't know why i feel this way too. i have been thinking for the whole day today-should i appeal? i wanted to initially, but after listening to the lady, i became interested and decided not to. i don't know why, i suddenly pity myself and feel like crying. weird or what? i think i'm crazy. just ignore me, i'll be alright tomorrow. i need some quiet time myself to straighten out my tangled feelings.

2011-01-19T12:29:00.003+08:00

somehow, i miss school. LOL!

i've been blog hopping for a long time and chanced upon couples breaking up or break, patch, break patch. and i've friends whom just ventured into a relationship or whom just broke off with their boyfriend. and i've seen people patching up with their ex after a few years. quote from what melissa tang said- 'i can't stand couples who break, patch, break, patch. it's alright if you quarrel but if you keep breaking up and patching up after a quarrel, then you better don't start a relationship' i find this true. like after you got married and each time you quarrel, you'll divorce and get married to the same guy again and again? this is so hilarious. lol! i think the ROM wouldn't allow you guys to get married again because they find it so irritating.lol!

ok, back to the topic. a relationship is about trust- be it long distance or those who meet everyday. may be you'll say that i only have 1 experience so i'm in no position to say anything. i would only reply: then how many experiences you want? 10? 20? flirt bitch! no, i'm not angry.lol. i've always envied when i see old couples in their 70s walking hand in hand together, even my grandparents don't do that anymore. this is what i call true love. the love between them never wavers. ok, may be that's the appearence. aiya, who knows but i'm sure there are really such cases in other countries. my parents have been together for 26 years and they're still as loving as ever. sometimes i couldn't even stand them and ask them to stop. LOL! don't worry, just verbal words. venturing into a relationship, i would say, is about being daring. would you dare to date an ah beng and fear that he'll get slashed and die? lol! just joking. what i want to say is that are you sure that you won't break up with the other party after being together for very long and you guys know each other so well that people would say that you two are made for eachother? even married couples for more than a decades get divorced because of various reason.

if your reply is: we treasure eachother everyday and treat everyday like we just ventured into a new relationship, then good for you. but you won't know what will happen in the future.

ok, i don't think anyone would be reading this. whatever, just my point of view. if anybody chanced upon this, i'd like to tell you that i'm not pin pointing anyone, just saying out my thoughts. my blog, my say. thanks. i've to rush now. bye!

2011-01-16T21:56:00.002+08:00

i have nothing to blog about actually. i'm done with buying of my new year clothes and i spent quite a lot after getting my pay. i think usually the 1st month of pay is like that because you're so excited. so ya, i treated my parents and younger bro to McDonald's after i've gotten my pay. can't wait for CNY to come! miss all the gatherings and i bet the first question would be 'how did you fair for your O levels' or 'where are you working now?' it's common. usually it's the same questions every year. nevertheless, i still love meeting everybody and we would chat happily. but i know those are sacastic conversations because behind their backs, my parents would talk about their children or things about them so i think they'll do that to us too. working tomorrow! hope it pours tomorrow so that i have much less customers. haha!

2011-01-13T13:37:00.002+08:00

ok. so, i've submitted my 12 choices. i don't know how it'll be like, so i'll just let god decide or whoever is in charge of this JAE thing. i met the requirements of my top 3 choices but my cop is higher. so i don't know how it'll turn out to be. people always say-got for your interest. i wonder do they see my interest in it. whatever. i'll be having a busy day today and tomorrow. will blog again when i have time! can't wait to meet joanne on sunday!

2011-01-10T22:36:00.003+08:00

IT'S MY LAST DAY IN SCHOOL UNIFORM TODAY!!

i wouldn't say that my result is lousy or it's good. it just fall on the 'ok-ok' category. i don't even know if there os such place. whatever. so, after looking through the JAE booklet, i have very limited choices-mostly engineering or IT. engineering requires mathematics and i suck in it. not to mention about IT. i'm a total IT noob. aiya, there's always a way out la.

for those who did not do well or your result is not what you expected(in a bad way), do not lose hope. there are always solutions to all problems. all the best!

2011-01-09T23:31:00.002+08:00

beautiful sunday with sws main today.

woke up late and had to rush everything. then met peiwei and biwei at jurong east before proceeding to esplanade. found a room, set up our instruments and went up to the stage for practice. after practice, had McDonald's for lunch and i broke my record by eating 2 burgers at a go. blah blah blah, the concert started at 3 to 4. went nafa with the huayi peeps after that then had dinner at bugis. after beautiful sunday, my next programme coming up is the malaysia trip, then huayi concert, swsy concert then the last one would be com work. glad that i'm having more practices and my life won't be just work, band practice, work, band practice. sometimes, some performaces or events can make life much interesting.

2011-01-06T12:48:00.004+08:00

it's chaoxiang's birthday today! lol.

was working for the past 3 days and i'm enjoying it to the max! i don't know why also.lol! spirits were high and i couldn't stop smiling. i know, crazy. though tues was a little havoc because i was working at a different cart and the morning was super messy. was feeling super unsettled but after break i felt much better. glad that it was raining for the past 3 days so there aren't much customers. so after 3 days of working, i'm down with flu. my eyes are watery, like i just cried.

so the news were out and O level results would be out on the 10th, which is next monday. all the best to everyone!

2011-01-02T20:50:00.002+08:00

so, 2010 is over and 2011 has arrived, unknowingly. and apparently, i did not have a good new year start because i lost my name tag in the morning and at night, i met a super duper lousy bus driver who is rushing off to hell and wants everybody on the bus to go with him.

i had family celebration yesterday at aunt's house after work. had late dinner and the male adults in the house was obessed in fast tap. the highest record is 349, from my dad. so we chatted, laughed, finished all the alcohols and left for home at near 2am. luckily we are only one road away. i headed off to bed straight upon setting foot into the house.

2010-12-28T18:04:00.002+08:00

ok, i hope that i did not freak you people out with what i posted on my facebook. actually it was really nothing-to me. so the story actually goes like this: yesterday was tourist day and the number of people coming to buy things never stop. even if there aren't any customers, it is like only for 2-3 mins at most and during that time, i have to put my stocks in place nicely and cleaning my work area, which apparently, i don't have time for that. blah blah blahh and stuff, my heart suddenly pumped very fast while i was serving customers and i didn't care much because it happened before. so i continued to work and ignore it until i can't stand it anymore. it has been there pounding for hours and i decided to call my manager to ask him for permission to let me go home early. so ya, they brought me to the first aid and then i had to move to the clinic at the basement to check the rythmn of my heart beat. so i suppose that the doctor and nurses there were apparreled by my machine gun heart beat and trembling hands, they wrote a letter and asked me to go to A&E immediately. i changed out of my working attire and took a cab down to SGH with my assistant manager. registered, had my blood pressure and heart beat rate checked, i was asked to lie on the bed and the nurse wheeled me into one room to have a second heart rate checked. fortunately and surprisingly, my heart beat has gone back to normal but i have to stay back to have blood test, x-ray and i still have to stay in the observation ward till 11. dad came over after his work and we went home at near 12.

i was almost to give up on my clarinet and fortunately, the doctor says that this have nothing to do my sudden fast heart beat.

thanks people for your concern! i've recovered and is back to normal. and one more thing, i did not look at handsome guys before this incident. lol!

2010-12-27T07:58:00.001+08:00

i'm back to work after one week and i'm having weird feelings. could it be because of what ivy told me or something else? anway, i enjoyed myself to the max last week-packed with all band practices. till then, see ya!

2010-12-25T02:30:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

i had my first christmas count down just now and it was a little solemn.lol! but anyway, i had fun. before that, the band had a performance outside ngee ann city. it lasted for like around half an hour. the human traffic in orchard was terrible. people were unknowingly attracted to each other and somehow, got glued together. it was super super packed and nobody gives way-even when they see you holding or pushing some big instruments. glad that there are still kind souls but majority are like country pumkins. we reached school at around 10 then we started unloading the instruments into the classroom and then we left for a mini celebration at the basketball court opposite huayi. chit chatted, crapped, ate, drank and we packed up at near 1. took night rider home after that. photos are in facebook and there's a christmas celebration with family tomorrow night!! i smell more pictures.

2010-12-22T21:50:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK FROM 3 DAYS 2 NIGHTS BAND CAMP!

the only fun thing during the camp was when we sneaked in and sleep in the boys' bunk. the others were alright as it was either band practice or sectional or marching. i wouldn't say that it's intensive or it wasn't. to me, it feels a little like normal practice. marching was really terrible and disappointing.

anyway, stayed back awhile to settle some stuffs for friday's performance then i rushed back home to bathe and headed out to ion to meet jiaojun,joey and charmaine. unfortunately, i reached late and only get to catch up at little with joey and jiaojun. charmaine and i walked over to far east after that for awhile then we go seperate ways.

2010-12-17T07:38:00.002+08:00

i hate it when i feel like vomitting every morning when i had breakfast. now, i understand why some people can't take heavy breakfast in the morning. BUT MY BREAKFAST AIN'T HEAVY AT ALL! just a cup of milo and a bun and that made me vomitted a little of my milo.

i suppose i am able to attend all 3 days of band camp tomorrow and able to stay overnight!! whoohooo!!!

2010-12-16T13:58:00.002+08:00

for now, i just want to quickly save enough money for sydney and then work for only like 1 day per week. i can't stand my assistant manager and i don't want to work as a cashier anymore. as for a clarinet, i'm using a good clar now, so there's really no hurry in buying a new one. so i think i'll just stick to this clar all the way until i have more than enough to buy one for myself.

2010-12-13T23:55:00.003+08:00

so basically, i have been working dilligently for the past 3 days, standing 9 hours every day. my legs are super tired and i'm physically exhausted. my lunch is around 3-4 and my dinner is at 11. meal times are screwed. my neck hurts like siao. i think i did not sleep properly last night. i have problems turing my head to the side and my left shoulder is giving me problem again. is this a sign of ageing? i hope not.

today is my off-day and i woke up even earlier than work days to go mayflower to practice. did not practise for the past 3 days because work is seriously draining me inside out and i reach home at near 11, so it's impossible to practise anymore. i left at around 1.30 to orchard to meet chuanjie, shihui and nicholas to buy stuffs for the christmas performance. lunched and walked around until we made up our mind to walk to plaza sing. had gong-cha and rest our legs. bought the things and i trained back to meet up with christine, her bf and cheryl for rapunzel! the show is nice! yes, there is a bad women and the ending is forever after but this time, the princess is heroic i would say and the prince is not those common prince-ride on a white horse and stumbed upon the princess. the prince here is actually a thief. go catch the show if you haven watched. girls, i bet you will love it.lol. the part where the whole village light the lanterns touched me a lot. walked home with cheryl and we saw civil defense at the block beside the car park. heard that somebody is commiting suicide but he didn't jump. mum and i went down to check but there was nothing and we headed home. TYPICAL! lol!

hopefully my manager allows me to take one whole week off next week because i badly want to perform during christmas eve, attend all 3 days of band camp, attending both sws main and youth band and celebration for christmas with maternal side. god bless me. hope he doesn't flare up because i told him i need to off tomorrow on yesterday night and he sounded pissed. *cross fingers*

2010-12-09T23:41:00.003+08:00

good days always end so quickly. my 3 days off are over and in exchange, i have to work for 3 days continuously. kind of dreading it but oh well, i need moolah! lol. the job is actually quite simple. just that you have to be quick and efficient. if not complains will keep haunting you. blog again soon if i still have the energy after working 10 hours.

2010-12-07T13:39:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the first day of work. to sum up everything, it was actually quite fun and challenging. there may be many customers at one go or there may not be any customers. but it was super hot. ended work at around 7 something then the manager brought me and yuan qi to tour around the whole USS. we stopped halfway because there was a birthday celebration. bused to jurong point and walked home with mum at 10. feels good after riding such a long bus trip because my legs are breaking apart. going mayflower tomorrow for practice!

2010-12-05T13:21:00.003+08:00

mother fucker, i don't see a need in tolerating your nasty temper ALL THE TIME. i think you seriously have some problem up there because you can't differentiate when people are rude or not rude to you. you're crazy. when we continue speaking nicely to you in an agruement, you said we raised our voices while you didn't. go screw yourself up down left right la! your ear seriously have a major problem. i don't see any point in talking to you anymore, i guess. i may be your sister BUT I DO NOT HAVE TO TOLERATE YOUR FUCKING NBCCB NASTY TEMPER! you only know how to solve problem through that temper. when a crisis occurred, you still ran back to daddy and mummy for help. so where are all the 'heroic' things you've said? those are a pile of shit. honestly, i've not respected you from the day you turned astrayed. and i never once believed you. i helped you because i symphatised you, not because you're my brother. and the major reason is because i love sharmaine, i don't want her to suffer. i was super super pissed just now. like wtf is wrong with me asking you to take care of your daughter? YOU NEVER ONCE HAVE A SENSE OF RESPONSIBILITY. let's not talk about your daughter, let's talk your two tortoise. from the day you bought them home, WE HAVE BEEN THE ONE LOOKING AFTER THEM! i feed them everyday and they look like they've starved for a few days. really pity them. it's a shame that i don't dare to take them out, if not i would change their water everyday and not wait for you. you LOVE to use 'tired' as an excuse not to do anything but i think you're just lazy and only think about yourself. put yourself in that 2 tortoises' shoe-would you like to live in a dirty and smelly environment? you always think of yourself, you're extremely selfish. it's really a shame to have you as my brother. i've never been proud of it before, seriously.

2010-12-04T11:14:00.002+08:00

i haven't got the photo from valerie. yesterday's evening was fun with girlfriends! before that, i had food hygiene course in USS with bernard. the course was boring but it was more indept into how to have good food hygiene. the course ended at around 4. went to have uniform fitting, making of pass ID and name tag. after everything, trained down to bugis to meet up with girlfriend. had steamboat at one of the whole stretch of steamboat shops. the dinner was serious dam fulfilling. i think i had mushroom steamboat because i ate mostly mushrooms. after that, we trained down to valerie's house for chocolate fondue and some chit chattings. left her house at 11.30. yesterday was seriously a fun day! like we were back to our lower seconday periods. man! those were the memories!

2010-12-02T12:56:00.002+08:00

as usual, it's about band for the past few days and i'm enjoying it to the max! really miss those busy band days! so, monday was a rest day for me. tues and wed was a full day huayiband practice cum marching. sad that i can't have any band practice tomorrow as i have to attend a course in USS with bernard! attending sws practice later at night. have to practice a few pieces before going, if not i think i'll just stone there. hopefully i'll be able to attend all night practices after i started working. seriously, i wouldn't want to have many mistakes on 9th jan and i think there are only 4-5 more practices left.

2010-11-28T10:31:00.002+08:00

hey peeps! sorry for not blogging for these few days. (as if there are any reader/s,lol) so, i have been attending band practice from thurs till today. had huayi open house rehearsal on fri. the band was going haywired after mr tan left. like there are no more discipline anymore. the whole band do not care about looking at the conductor and kept rushing like nobody's business. do you call yourselves musicians? think about it.

sat was huayi open house. glad that the whole band is looking at mr tan. also, am glad that the audiences this time aren't so rude to leave half way during our performance. i guess the super mario has a part in helping to draw the audiences' attendtion.

swsy today. there are more people attending today's practice. sight read a few pieces and last week's songs and band ended at 2. stayed back to photocopy the scores till 3 something until mr tan came to show me the clarinet. met valerie at jp at around 4. long john for lunch and i bought a shoe and we walked around for awhile before bus-ing back home. napped till 7.30 and had dinner.

oh ya! i will be performing in esplanade for beautiful sunday on 9th jan with sws main. mad elated i tell you! it have always been my wish to perform in esplanade. seriously, no words can describe how happy i was when i received the news!!!

2010-11-24T23:28:00.002+08:00

life is boring recently. beside attending band practices, i have been rotting at home either infront of the tv or computer. i have no idea how i passed the days too,lol. luckily i'm having a job interview tomorrow at harbourfront mac with jiajia and yingxue. we may be working in universal studio! like cool right?! can't wait sia. scarli they give out free tickets to their staffs during CNY then i can try out their rides for free! lol, i know. dreaming again.

anyway, i miss those busy band days. i can have band for the whole day but with different bands. like i can have band for 6 out of 7 days or a few days with whole day band and a few half day band. i miss those days where i'm so tired after band and skipped school in the morning. like gosh! those were the days where my embrochure and stamina are at it's tip top. now i can't even sustain a 3 hours practice. crap only. stupid O levels. i'm fucking lousy now. everything dropped, so don't even talk about sight reading. suck to the max only. now i'm left with nothing good again, only a piece of junk with super lousy skills.

2010-11-21T16:06:00.002+08:00

BBQ with the usual clique yesterday at east coast park was FUN TO THE MAX! been so long since we last met. met up with valerie first at jp before training to kallang to meet yam.then we had lunch at betok before bus-ing to east coast. we cycled to betok jetty to slack awhile before cycling to our pit. the pit was super far away and we had to walk 1hr to reach mac or cycle for half an hour to reach there. spam of photographs when the rest reached. cab home with girlfriends. off to swimming with yam now, tadah!

2010-11-19T16:59:00.004+08:00

before heading out the meet jiajia and yingxue, i was super upset about my make up because i looked super fake. the DD cream mum gave me is super useful for people who loves thick make ups and cover all their flaws, but not for me. im sure i looked like some kind of monster. never in my life i've look so ugly before, even bro agrees:( so i wiped off most of the cream and i looked slightly better but still looked monster-ish. luckily as the day went by, much sweat was produced and the cream was washed off i guess. ok, back to the event, minus-ing the games and lucky draw, prom was fun! because apparently, none of the people in my table won any prizes and the lucky draw winners was mainly the sec 4s, except for huimin. i'm sssssoooo glad that the food was much much much much better than last year's! say yeah to cold dish and boo to goropok(?). we even had sharkins a like soup for our second course, which is also sssssooo much better than last year's chicken soup i think. think i had my fair share last night cause i drank 1.5 bowls of that 'sharkfins'.

after the whole event, everybody was obsessed in taking photos and we only went out of the hotel at 12 something. heels are surely a killer. the girls feet were hurting like crazy after walking on those heels. anyway, we caught harry potter at 2.10 at cine. the show was a little like horror movie because there are some 'suprirising' scenes. the movie ended at 4 something near 5. slacked at mac till 6 and we cabbed home. i took much lesser photo this year since i don't know majority of them and other than my classmates and bandmates, there are none i know. photos are up on facebook, under last year's prom folder.

i'll post my years in huayi may be tomorrow or something.

2010-11-16T23:41:00.002+08:00

now that Os are over, i'm feeling super bored at home everyday! luckily there's yam and mary to accompany me to nua today and yesterday. anyway, i have been having many weird dreams lately, like i went for a blood donation. crazy only. and the needles are like super huge! i remember the last time i had injection was p6 and i cried after that. stupid only.LOL!

anyway, prom is just 2 days away! very just nice-ly, it falls on mum's birthday. so i can't celebrate her birthday this year as i'll be away for the whole night. it's like super cool! first time staying out the whole night without any shelter above me. oh ya! dad has been crazy and thinks that i'm drinking outside. lol! crazy only though i've drank outside once during middle of this year i guess when i met up with the cliques. so i think no drinking during the bbq on the 20th if not dad will just boomz! LOL! aiya, just see how it goes.

2010-11-13T23:10:00.001+08:00

spent my whole day slacking and lazing infront of the television. i have a new hair colour! have been wanting to dye my hair for freaking llloonnnggg!! going out with the girls tomorrow to search for prom dress. till then, see ya!

2010-11-13T14:03:00.002+08:00

miss 33rd nco! but non of them came yesterday.

yesterday was the last day of O levels! i should feel elated but i feel nothing. it feels like it's just a typical day. it's actually quite ironic when i've been feeling very happy when i keep thinking about the last day of Os but when it reached, i felt nothing. whatever. so, after my last paper, i went for an interview with jasmin at jurong east. after that, i took bus 66 down to CCAB, chuanjie met me on the bus. this year's nco was not really a blast as last time. however, i like the part where they asked someone to help to put on the badges up for the majors. i find this really meaningful. dinner with them after that at king albert park and slacked there till 10 before taking 157 home. had a good laugh with them!

2010-11-12T13:17:00.002+08:00

finally it's the last paper! i've been waiting so long for this moment! nope, not sad at all. but i'll miss everybody like crazy! if it's meant to be, we'll still be keeping in touch even after 10 years, haha. all the best to everyone-reguardless of your future, relationships or whatever.

will be heading down to CCAB after an interview with jasmin and her friend at jurong east after our paper. it's my third continuous year to view the passing out parade. guess my batch peeps won't be going anymore, afterall, it had been three long years. have to go off now, bye!

2010-11-09T05:46:00.002+08:00

it's the 1111th post!
RP concert on saturday with the cliques! 4 months ago, i was here for a competition, now i'm here to watch a concert.

it's 6am now and i've been sitting here for half an hour. actually i was up at 5am with the pain in my stomach. i thought it was menstrual cramp and i ignored it until i realised that menstrual cramp should be even more below. so much for being a biology student. lol. and guess what. i'm consuming food after 24 hours. minus drinking teh tarik yesterday after band. mum thinks that it's the teh tarik whom make my stomach sick. i got home feeling sick and i feel like vomiting, hence i headed off to bed at 7.30 and all the way till 5. i woke up twice because sharmaine was too noisy, lol.

until this gastric recovers, if not i don't think i can start drawing my art. i have a job interview with jasmin and her friends later.

2010-11-04T16:31:00.002+08:00

i dont understand why do we have to keep helping you with the mess you've created. we dote on her but that does not mean that you can take advantage of it. you are the one who created the trouble so whatever it is, you have to try to help everybody also. stop all your unwanted big dreams. say what you can earn big bucks after army. talk cork! if you regretted not having enough time to go on a date with your wife, then think back. ask yourself why aren't you sensible in the past; ask yourself why can't you take out your gun at a later time; ask yourself why you cannot be a better son. ASK ASK ASK! only when you search for the answer yourself then you'll learn and grow. seriously, i think we're helping too much to the extend that you're too much. next, stop saying that you're tired and ask us to help you with this and that. enough is enough! who the hell in this house is not tired after a long day? dad and mum are tired after work everyday and they have to help you with your daughter. help you look after her all the way she's asleep whereas you only have to say 'im going to sleep already. very tired' FUCK! it all boils down to -family. you should know better than anyone that what we wanted was not 'thank you'. word is cheap. you can say that and don't mean anything in your heart. even if you put on a good front, we wouldn't know that you're lying either. i wanted so much to tell you off each time but knowing if i did that, the house will be in harvoc so i keep all these inside me. have you any idea how much i dislike you? it's really an irony, seriously!

2010-11-03T12:44:00.002+08:00

i give up! my brain is super dead and nothing goes inside. i'll try again in school later.

i don't get why people keep changing their blog url like they're changing clothes. nabei! decide fast on what url you want to have. it's troublesome for people to keep relinking you. to add on to that, i've been noticing that a lot people are setting their blog as private. what the heck is this? if you don't want people to know about your blog, then don't tell them la! you want people to know you have a blog but you don't want them to know what you've written. what the fuck is this!

2010-10-30T23:46:00.003+08:00

short meet up with yam and bernard. had a fun time bullying him with yam.

i've finally finished playful kiss within this 2.5 days. the show is nnniiiicccceee!!! guess part of the reason why i find this show nice is because i've forgotten much of the taiwan version.. kim hyun joong is as usual hhhooottt!! much handsome some the taiwan's main lead actor:x no wonder he's my 1st husband.LOLOLOLOLOL! need to head back to the books after not studying for these few days.

2010-10-25T00:29:00.003+08:00

ENGLISH PAPER TOMORROW! ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE! we have worked so hard just for this day, do not give up half way!

as usual, please do not ask how i did. i would greatly appreciate that. i promise i will do my very best, but i can't gurantee anything. talk is cheap, please stop asking me to score well. you know, i'm stupid up there:)

2010-10-20T17:56:00.005+08:00

sharmaine is coming home today after staying at her maternal parents side for 2 days!

i'm afraid that i can't get into the course i want.

i'm afraid of failing a major again.

i'm afraid of not being able to save enough to buy a clarinet.

i'm afraid of not being able to meet everyone after Os.

pardon me, i tend to reflect even more when i'm under stress.

2010-10-18T00:15:00.003+08:00

the innocent days were gone. glad that it happened.

mum is discharged from the hospital on friday. she went in for an operation on wednesday midnight. she's recuperating fast, so don't worry peepo.

anyway, O levels is officially starting in another 2 weeks(not counting science practical which falls on thurs). all the best to everyone! this is the final lap of the marathon. do not give up, even if you have no more strength, you still have to jog your way to the finishing line.

2010-10-12T18:30:00.001+08:00

i said i will be strong, but inside me, i'm battling to hold them back.

2010-10-12T17:59:00.002+08:00

you'll survived this again this time round. we'll wait patiently for you to come home and recuperate. luckily the exam break is coming so that i can make a trip down to the hospital to visit you after revising everyday.

nope, i won't cry and will stay strong.

2010-10-10T23:05:00.002+08:00

another one more week to go! jiayou!

anyway, my mum is already discharged. she'll have to go for a scanning a few weeks later to check on the cysts. if it's not threatening her life, she will not have to take her ovaries out.

2010-10-07T18:10:00.003+08:00

i miss this girl ma-ni ma-ni!!

ever since mum is hospitalised, sharmaine has been living with her maternal grandparents house. yes, my mum is hospitalised. the doctor thought it was appendix initially but after staying in the hospital for 2 days, she went for a scan and they found something weird inside her oviduct,i guess. it can't be the uterus because she already had her uterus taken out a few years ago. no doubt, a tumour was found inside again, therefore the doctor sent my mum to another doctor who is specilist in this kind of thing. but mum said the doctor have not arrived yet, so we still don't know about her condition.

no, i'm not going to cry or feel sad. life still have to go on. i believe that mum will make it this time as she has already gone through once. and it's not as if my mum is going to die after a few weeks. i admit i teared a few times when i went to the hospital with her on mon, but i'm not going to let this pull me down or pull the whole family down. everybody is staying positive about this. it's quite diffcult for me to visit her in the weekdays as there's school and i still have many things to revise, thus i'll only go during the weekends and hopefully she'll be able to go home by this week.

2010-10-01T17:10:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY TO ALL! i believe that there are still childish sides of an adult or a soon-to-be adult.

still alive and kicking well despite all the studyings.

the new pizza- 7 chesse by pizzahut is tempting me to try her as soon as possible. GOSH!

2010-09-26T23:17:00.002+08:00

i'm not dead yet but already on the verge. actually i did not do any studying this weekend except for finishing one essay that my teacher asked me to re-do. apart from that, i did not touch any school work at all. i wanted to study on sat when i went over to val's house. but, wii and dai dee is forever a hugh distraction. ya, i know, excuses. whatever! wanted to study when i reached home but uncle came over at night to drink with mum, so i did not study.

today, i went to visit my paternal grandma at commonwealth. before that, my family had prawn noodles for breakfast at dad's friend stall. slacked for awhile at grandma's house then went home and napped till 6. had dinner and did an essay. perharps today will be the last day i use the comp? or may be i will use for only a short while. i have a super chor weeks waiting for me- remedials everyday until 6pm. above that, i still have to revise upon reaching home. gosh! nevermind goh swee ling! you will overcome this!

2010-09-23T12:39:00.004+08:00

SIBF- 23 july 2010

i overslept today, therefore i did not attend school. my alarm did not ring and i was shocked when i opened my eyes and saw '7am' on my clock and i looked for my phone immediately and saw a message from jiajia. then i realised that i had overslept. i was still semi-conscious then. my house now does not have much thing. there isn't any bit of milo! family is super broke for this month, so broke that my parents can't afford to buy our weekly groceries. luckily there's still maggie mee left, if not i think i'd have to settle my branch with bread AGAIN.

gotten back a few of our prelims result and it was as usual demoralising. i got scolded by my chem teacher which really wakes me up and feel that i should start pulling up my socks. heard that we would get back all our papers tomorrow. i need a good heart in case i faint,lol. whatever. guess will be blogging much lesser. have to start studying intensively already. swimming tomorrow! till then, seeya! can't wait for Os to end, then i'll feel rich by working! CLARINET, HERE I COME!

2010-09-19T23:44:00.002+08:00

just reached home from christine's birthday celebration. 8 years and still counting:) clarke quay is a suitable place for hang outs, especially at night. the lightnings and atmosphere are very suitable for chill out. too bad i have school tomorrow and they have work, if not may be we'll stay longer and may be home after 12? actually not much difference, cause it's already 11.45.lol. good night peeps!

2010-09-19T00:23:00.006+08:00

yam came over to my house yesterday to play with sharmaine as well as slack. she's so free nowadays that she can spend hours painting her nails. like ki siao only,lol. went jurong point at around 4 something after sharmaine has fallen asleep. walked around and homed at near 7. dai dee-ed after dinner and i lost. our forfeit was to allow the winner to paint our fingers. she went home at 9.

2010-09-16T17:13:00.002+08:00

there's only practical paper left and it feels as if the whole O level examinations are over. lol. anyway, i went out with charmaine yesterday. thanks for the treat girl! my turn next time:) we met up at clementi. before that, while i was walking to the bus stop, i was approached by 2 surveryor(?). one thought that i'm studying in poly and other one thought i'm already working or studying in NUS, lol. we took bus 106 down to far east. had lunch then started walking around. bused down to bugis after that at around 4 plus. haji lane-d again and trained home.

Day 3- your parents

i thought parents should be the first but i don't know why is it the 3rd day. whatever. thanks for giving birth to me and teaching me all my 'first time'. sorry for throwing tantrums whenever i'm feeling low and thanks for tolerating it. i could say that i'm a good daughter- at least i'm much much much better than that useless older son. so sorry that i could not let go of the hatred i have of him despite taking sense to me most of the time. i think that he's worst than grandpa. at least grandpa is not that arrogrant and fake. gosh! talking about him just makes me boil. other than sorry and thank you, i have nothing to say. you guys are the best best parents in my eyes. if possible, i would like to have you two as my dad and mum again for my next 100000 lifes.

2010-09-15T23:24:00.003+08:00

ask yourself, are you really fit to become a parent? the two of you does not have any sense of responsibility at all, not even once. don't you find it sad that your daughter prefers her grandparents, uncle and aunt more than the two of you? it's true that you two can be very energentic when playing but not when you're looking after your own flesh and blood. the most riddiculous and unforgiven thing is that you can fall asleep while looking after your child, leaving her on the bed alone while you were in your lala land. tell me, how to show you two repect? i think you should call me 'jiejie' now.

2010-09-15T22:09:00.003+08:00

Day 2- your crush

this is an on and off affair because this has go on for quite sometime and i think it's on again. it's a good thing that we're communicating more. guess the major reason why you attracted me is because we are both musicians. everday whenever i'm online, i would search for your name. i don't know whether is it a habit or what because i'm still doing it even when the feeling is off. i like the way you smile, you look cute when you cut your hair short and you look great when your hair is long. all the best for your exam and hope that you can fulfill your dream soon!

2010-09-14T16:11:00.002+08:00

this sounds boring but since i've got nothing to blog, i've decided to do this. i may jump to a different day as i don't have things to talk about for some. i chanced upon this on my junior, minhui's blog.

Day 1--Your Best Friend

hey best friends! no need me to write down who you are right? you know and i know:) it's been great knowing you girls and probably the best of my life! thanks alot for all your care and patience. thanks alot for going through with me during my most down period 2 years ago. hope i've not caused much worry to you girls:) with all of you, i had slowly walked out of that period because i know you all care for me. EEEEHHHH! lol. anyway, i may be annoying at times but just ignore me. though we're super busy with our own stuff now, a small meet up would be able to brighten up my whole day. you can also tell me that you miss me once in awhile and i'll be very contented because at least i know that though your mind is busy with schoolwork and other stuffs, you still have me in your mind. no amount of words could describe how much i love all of you. always bear in mind, i wouldn't leave you girls unless you want me to because meeting all of you are a blessing to me.

2010-09-13T17:03:00.002+08:00

33rd NCO CAMP!
the most tiring, most sweaty and fun camp i have ever been to!

2010-09-13T05:14:00.003+08:00

it's rare for me to be awake at 5.15 unless there's a chalet. there's maths paper 1 today and i did not touch any of my practice paper, therefore i woke up at 4.30 to do one paper.

anyway, i went to haji lane with zavier yesterday. before that, i went to west coast plaza to watch the performance put up by sws main. trained down to bugis then we went to a place where there's all the 2nd hand items. that place is impressive! there's almost everything- clothes, shoes, shorts, bra, albums, etc. you name it, they have it. the weather was blistering hot and we were sweating like mad dog. the only thing we did not do is stick out our tongue, lol. haji lane after that. if i have a thousand now, i would close my eyes and point at anything to the sales person then say 'wrap it up' lol! wait long long la. then our legs gave way and trained home at around 6 somethings.

please end this cycle fast. i miss swsy! and i hate all the studyings everyday.

2010-09-09T22:52:00.003+08:00

aww, i miss sharmaine. she will only be back on sunday night because my dad will be paining my house's doors. my house will no longer be all white, it will be all grey and purple! hopefully it will look nice when the work is finished. i hope to have blue colour painted on my room walls but my mum disagrees because she said that blue is a sad colour. like huh? lol!

anyway, this week was spent quite unproductive. have been either slacking or reading book or watching tv or attending band practices. oh well, at least i've finished reading that kind of thick book i have borrowed from the school library before holiday and i did a few maths question. tomorrow and saturday will be a busy day as i may have to help dad paint some parts of the doors or i have to do housework. did not sweep the floor and clean the doors today and dad and mum were nagging.lol. but hey! at least i did the laundry!

have been having weird dreams recently and i don't even know what my dreams were about.

2010-09-09T00:46:00.002+08:00

back from the september band practices. we had an exchange with mayflower on tuesday, followed by regular practice and marching today.

this could most probably be my last exchange but not my last practice i hope. may be i would go back once in a fortnight? i'll see how things go after my prelims and also depends on my results. this marching would probably be the last session i'll be conducting? i don't know. but it was really funny and fun conducting marching with this batch. actually it was fun conducting marching for all batches. it was also fun teaching the newly appointed drum major mace work. but it's no longer my job now. nevertheless, i would still provide help if any majors need help in anything. i would not come back as a drum major, but as a senior of this band. afterall, i'm the only one who has stayed so loyal to this band for so long and created history. LOL!

this batch, i would say that they're fun to hang out. the sec ones have slowly picked up the culture of huayi band but they still need the seniors to spoon feed them occassionally. please play louder, especially to the clarinettists, flautists and oboeist. ok la, i used to be very soft also. lol! but it's better to get scolded from your seniors than our conductor. the sec twos are gradually improving their playing skills and they're quite hardworking also. the sec threes, being the most senior in the band now are somewhat becoming more independent and more responsible, only a handful of playful ones. the playful ones, you ought to reflect. lol.

new majors, it's fun to manage the band right? lol! it's tiring most of the time- running to the stuffroom straight after school to collect the keys, have to skip lunch or take a quick lunch, marking attendences, having to take care of the welfare of everyone, ensuring that the tasks given by the conductor and teachers-in-charge were properly done and the lists go on. however, at the end of the day, you would feel a sense of accomplishment. seriously, you would feel proud. EH EH! lol! anyway, it's fun hanging out with you guys and i lllooooovvvvvveeee to disturb the drum majorS :DDDD toufu and your wife. LOL!

somehow, i feel that this is like another speech. lol! whatever. i don't think any of the band members read this page.

2010-09-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

best friends do not have to contact everyday to keep the kind of chemistry between us, for the special bond within us are being tied together with an invinsible string.

it's 1am now and i'm not feeling tired at all. think i will have a hard time getting up at 7.30 tomorrow to go to school for a musical exchange with mayflower. this exchange, may be the last exchange i will have with hua yi concert band. after this, my status would prolly be the alumi.

haven been studying much for this week, only one subject per day. think it's time to stop slacking already. however, i still feel strongly that one needs a break after an intensive studying or when their brain is about to explode anytime after squeezing so much things into their brain. so if you see me online, don't ask me to study because i will do it MYSELF. i'm old enough to know what's good for me and what's bad for me and i know how much my body can take it--mentally or physically. furthermore, my parents do not care so much, so i don't see why are you so concerned. ok, this sounds harsh. but turn the table around. how would you feel when your friends kept asking you to study when you have already studied or when you can't take the stress anymore? actually i don't mind you asking once out of concern, but constantly asking me to study really makes me feel irritated.

i'm not refering to anyone. just writing down my thoughts and emotions. no harm, peepo:)

2010-09-04T12:00:00.005+08:00

the gathering yesterday was fun! had a great laugh at their past stupid actions and making fun of yeetat. everyone was high yesterday night. i think the alcohols are one reasons that we're all feeling high. those who went are vivian,melissa,valerie,nicholas,hantong,wailap,yeetat and myself.

anway, before the meet up, i had geography paper in the afternoon. met up with yingxue and jiajia for lunch at mac before heading to school. double mcspicy with garlic chilli is shiok man! went for band after the paper. my fingers felt numb with all the non-stop writing and my fingers couldn't run well. skills are deterioating. think i need to practise more scales already.

after band, i walked to lakeside to meet melissa. walked to her house to put my bag then to bubble tea to meet up with the rest. had dinner at 500 plus market then went to wailap's place to chill and slack. went home at 12 feeling a little high. my face looked red.